Addiction 2

Nichole

Whore this is what youre good for.
She works her 12 steps.

Today we’ll discuss model minorities in the media
I learn the six step.

Ms. Campbell’s Third Grade Class.
We met in the gifted program.

The arbys sandwich is on fire.
She’s doesn’t stop the microwave.
Pap she screams.
Arms flailing.
Waiting to be saved.

With his combs lined up all in a row.
Did I ever tell you about that time in the navy?
Again with the rhubarb pie.
It was so hard to watch him die.

You always gave me hope.
You never gave up.

But I did.
I waited by my phone.
Waiting for Shelia or Stacy to call and tell me you’re dead.

Frank tried to kill me once.
No wait it was twice.

I’m gonna make it look like an accident, He said.
Nodding off I watched him watch me.
He waited 4 hours for me to die

Bored he drove her to her yawning grave
Her eyes were dry

Why arent you crying
Ive had enough of living.
Im ready for dying.
Then youll live to suffer another day.

Thats how she got away.

Another meeting
Its like sitting in church
With a crack head at the pulpit
And I feel like im at home.
Creative, beautiful, nonjudgmental,
open free generous,
kind, survivors,
explorers of the spirit,
Afraid but introspective
When they’re recovering
Aren’t we all recovering?

For us.
One is too many,
A thousand is never enough
You don’t choose to be an addict.
You choose your addiction.
My addiction?
Addicts.